redemption

I spent most of my life adapting into given circumstances or trying to fight against the circumstances, act or react because of the circumstances, keeping inside a sad picture of a beautiful happy end, how I dreamed to do things differently, if I could only have the right surroundings. I didn't take the time to think about the very foundation of my believes all created, given and perpetuated by people's good intentions. People like me. I was to busy to reflect and change my views, so I kept my good intentions in a world of given views. My life could go on like this, if love wouldn't knock me out in unexpected rounds.

I give up all great actions
Now I'm standing here
tall, relaxed, ready to hear,
accept the sentence of a life I've been living in fear,
waiting for an other one,
of a great dream that was always near

great things are coming when everything seems to go wrong; old energy is clearing out for new to grow

Life seems to our perception
like a building with many rooms to go
Every room has a separated view
and limited comforts though
Where we assumed for long only a wall,
circumstances allow
or force us to discover a new door
That door was closed and maybe locked
Find the key and you will open the way
to a new room that expands your space
Isn't it all about expanding and grow?
This is however reserved to the fearless and the canny,
never the lazy and funny...
Bliss doesn't fall like rain or snow
It's part of the journey of the brave to the unknown

Love you so!

the dark nights of the soul

The best time to develop yourself is when you are in the dark about the future. There you start to open the eyes that can later see in the dark, the ears that can listen and understand everything, the heart of grace and joy. The passage to a higher life is through darkness. So give up your fear and keep walking ...

falling in Grace

If you walk gently, with a sense of wonder and devotion, slowly you will fall into the lap of grace. This is all that is needed to open the doors of life.

shall we dance

"Since I left Dresden
I began training too hard.
Pushing myself beyond my limits.
Expecting too much.

"Well, I didn't win.
Not even close.

"I stayed away from home without
my trophy or my love.

"And all this time I've been
hiding out. Angry at myself.
Frustrated and embarrassed.

"But helping others,
seeing how much more alive they can be
made me realize
just how much I'd given up myself.

"And now,
for the first time in a very long time
I want to dance again.

"So I need to thank you -
thank you for helping me to see this.

"I hope now
I get to see you
and dance with you again...

life commandments

don't move,
unless you mean it
don't say anything,
unless you feel it

don't ask, 

do as you please

don't think, 

just do

never forget love

from the skin to the core of the soul
with your skin to the core of your soul

Shiva dance

We are all Seiltänzer on a tightrope between this and that...
This and that are not constants, not even parameters, they are pointers to all pairs of contradictions to the mind.
Suffering is the Sisyphus work of the creative mind, the vain efforts to identify with any wishful thinking to eliminate the paradoxical nature of human life.
The part of our mind that is meant to recreate the world reality we experience is that side of the rope. This side is the awareness of being, the aliveness of now, the breath of the moment, the state of mind before the Exile.
You can't eliminate neither this nor that, you can't step aside the rope, you cannot even fall. Don't worry!
If you just realize that then you are blessed in this. Achieving anything from what  you need to what you've always dreamed of, you can enjoy being a dancer on a tightrope from birth to death...