14. März 2016

sayonara mushin

- Hello, Hana-ogi.
l`m going back to America on Friday and
l probably won`t get back in Japan again.
And before l go, there was just one thing
l wanted to know.
You remember one time you said to me that
you could love me and be a wife, and a mother?

-l remember.

- You said that since you`d known me,
you`d been afraid of being a lonely old woman,
teaching dancing.
Remember that?

- l remember.

- Did you mean that when you said it, Hana-ogi?

- l meant it.

- lt is already happening.
Love has gone out of my work, out of me.
Lloyd, please go now.
This will only bring pain and trouble.

- You and l are going to have more trouble
than we thought of having in our lives
unless you`re absolutely honest with yourself.

- Please, Lloyd, can`t we talk about this later?

- There isn`t going to be any later.
There`s only going to be right now.

- l must return this robe.

- Listen to me.
l want to know.
Do you love me, or don`t you?
Because if you don`t then l`m going
to have to find a way to live with it.
And if you do, then--

- Please, Lloyd.

- Wait a minute.
l don`t want you to tell me anything more...
or anything less than what you feel
in the very deepest part of you
because what you answer to me now
is going to affect us for the rest of our lives.
Do you love me, Hana-ogi,
or don`t you love me?

- l`m so frightened and confused.
l cannot think.
l cannot even understand your thinking.

- l`m not thinking!
For the first time in my life,
l`m not thinking, and l don`t care.

- But, Lloyd, we must do the right thing.
- What are you talking about, the right thing?
We`ve been wasting two good lives
trying to do the right thing
the right thing for Matsubayashi,
the right thing for my father
the right thing for the military,
the right thing for Japanese tradition
the right thing for the great white race.

- But we have duties and obligations.

- That`s right, we do!
We have duties and obligations
and the first obligation we have
is to love each other
to become man and wife,
and raise some clean, sweet children
and give them the very best
that we know how.
And if we don`t meet that obligation,
we ain`t going to be any good to anybody.

- We live in different worlds,
come from different races.

- Oh honey, l want you to be my wife.

- But what would happen to our children?
What would they be?

- What would they be?
They`d be half Japanese, half American.
They`d be half yellow and half white.
They`d be half you, they`d be half me.
That`s all they`re going to be.
Hana-ogi, l want you to come with me now.
l want you to come with me now,
down to the American consulate
here in Tokyo.
We`ll start filling out those papers,
`cause we`ve only got a few days
to get this whole thing done,
get it out of the way.

Will you come?
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